it’s gonna be a bright, bright…
this week is off to a rollicking start. i woke up this morning after a series of unpleasant dreams that left a bad taste in my mouth (no, not morning breath). but then the good started. the first bit was purely superficial–my weekly weigh-in put me at 150. which means i have lost 12 pounds since i started my diet. i’ve never been fat, but i was feeling a bit scuzzy and my pants were tight, so i decided to take some control of my body. in a way, my triumphs in that arena are a good metaphor for how i feel about the rest of my life right now–trimming down, getting rid of the excess so i’m as streamlined and efficient as possible. ha.
so, it’s a good feeling. great, even. i’m almost to my goal weight of 145, which is where i was when i left poland. i feel good in my clothes, i grin at myself when i dance around in my underwear in front of the mirror, and my bathing suit looks quite attractive. so this is of the good. 🙂
then i did my taxes. i’m an odd duck–i like paying taxes. i feel like it’s my duty to my country. i feel patriotic when i pay taxes. i know it makes it possible for me to drive on the roads, enjoy beautiful natural areas like glacier and yellowstone–near where i grew up in montana, and pays for our school systems. i also like to pretend that the money i pay goes toward helping my mom on medicaid and disability. she wouldn’t be okay without that. so i feel good about paying my taxes. even though i don’t pay a whole lot.
this year, i actually got a big old refund, so that put a smile on my face as well. it’s all going to finance my move, to move me forward into a new life. and i couldn’t be more excited about that if i tried. i’m buoyant. i think if anyone in dc were to look my direction, they could see me beaming from nashville. 🙂 i’m quite happy.
today i’m going to take a walk. for now, i’m listening to denali–which also makes me excited for dc, because i get to see them in concert in two short months. i’m wearing my leaf earrings today and i feel rather wondrous. six short weeks. i’m ready to get out there and make it happen.
Posted on 30 March, 2009, in meanderings, snapshots life and tagged authenticity, change, clarity, denali, diet, duck, excitement, glacier, life, music, patriotism, progress, taxes, unique. Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.